Should i be happy or not ???
Work's really tiring today. Doing ticketing over at Sentosa's Gantry. Really Shag. There;s so many cars...!! Jammed practically from morning 0700 to 1700...!! Went over to 'Adam's Corner' today after work, to have dinner and to catch up with Zhong Hua (sec sch friend)...Samuel went there to meet his friends too, so i got a free ride....!! Haa haa.
Actually i was planning to have dinner with Xiao Han (ocs), but he looks like he's going to leave sentosa at a rather late timing, so i decided to look for someone else to accompany me. Felt rather bad about it though.
the 'Makan' session with Zhong hua was rather good. Had quite a nice chat. Makes me realise that we've really being through a lot. Through those Sec sch carefree days, to those mugging JC days.....and now, to Uni. Looking back, time seemed to have just zoomed pass without letting us know at all....!!
Anyway, we talked about the uncertainties that we might face in the uni and also about the monetary problems that might surface or that had already surfaced....Haiz....Rather depressed after talking about it....Don't know how to earn my living expenses for the period of my Uni life... Haiz. ... Cos mum's not working anymore and that Dad's probably not going to work for the time being, cos of the recent Heart attack (he's having another operation tomorrow). Haiz..... And i really hated it when ppl kkept saying that i'm rich etc etc.....Damn...!! I'm really getting poor, and i dunno how when sch starts and i when sch stuffs starts to build up. Will i still have the time to work etc etc ?? haiz..... Just hope that ppl will just try to stand in my shoes and understand me (or is it that i don't understand them ??).
Though i know that i'm fortunate enough that i have a rather nice place to stay and also have lotsa of other things. But it's also hard not for me to compare myself with so many others that have everything provided for .... I know that i should feel contented and glad for everything, but it's easier said than to be done. Haiz....Just hope that things will get better...!! It certainly will...!!
ANyway, i got rather dis-hearted these few days with my OG's ppl. Tried to arrange a few outings etc etc, but no one's really interested etc. Really disappointed.... But i kinda miss them....!1Haa haa....hated this feeling. Damn, always like this. That's why i hated to go into another new environment...!! Got 'scolded' by Shun Wei for being too pessimistic all the time...!! Damn, who is he to say that to me ?? haa haa (just kidding). But it's true at time, even i cannot stand myself at times....!!
Haa...think i've talk enough liao, going to sleep real soon, cos i have to wake up early and go to hospital tomorrow.....! Going to have a really busy day tomorrow, cos have to rush to SMU to pay for the registration fees for the Stats Waiver test before going to work at 1300. Argh ...!! Shag...!! And also have to study for the test...!!! Haa haa..... nite nite nite....Love all of u who reads this...!! haa haa
shiyong...
Actually i was planning to have dinner with Xiao Han (ocs), but he looks like he's going to leave sentosa at a rather late timing, so i decided to look for someone else to accompany me. Felt rather bad about it though.
the 'Makan' session with Zhong hua was rather good. Had quite a nice chat. Makes me realise that we've really being through a lot. Through those Sec sch carefree days, to those mugging JC days.....and now, to Uni. Looking back, time seemed to have just zoomed pass without letting us know at all....!!
Anyway, we talked about the uncertainties that we might face in the uni and also about the monetary problems that might surface or that had already surfaced....Haiz....Rather depressed after talking about it....Don't know how to earn my living expenses for the period of my Uni life... Haiz. ... Cos mum's not working anymore and that Dad's probably not going to work for the time being, cos of the recent Heart attack (he's having another operation tomorrow). Haiz..... And i really hated it when ppl kkept saying that i'm rich etc etc.....Damn...!! I'm really getting poor, and i dunno how when sch starts and i when sch stuffs starts to build up. Will i still have the time to work etc etc ?? haiz..... Just hope that ppl will just try to stand in my shoes and understand me (or is it that i don't understand them ??).
Though i know that i'm fortunate enough that i have a rather nice place to stay and also have lotsa of other things. But it's also hard not for me to compare myself with so many others that have everything provided for .... I know that i should feel contented and glad for everything, but it's easier said than to be done. Haiz....Just hope that things will get better...!! It certainly will...!!
ANyway, i got rather dis-hearted these few days with my OG's ppl. Tried to arrange a few outings etc etc, but no one's really interested etc. Really disappointed.... But i kinda miss them....!1Haa haa....hated this feeling. Damn, always like this. That's why i hated to go into another new environment...!! Got 'scolded' by Shun Wei for being too pessimistic all the time...!! Damn, who is he to say that to me ?? haa haa (just kidding). But it's true at time, even i cannot stand myself at times....!!
Haa...think i've talk enough liao, going to sleep real soon, cos i have to wake up early and go to hospital tomorrow.....! Going to have a really busy day tomorrow, cos have to rush to SMU to pay for the registration fees for the Stats Waiver test before going to work at 1300. Argh ...!! Shag...!! And also have to study for the test...!!! Haa haa..... nite nite nite....Love all of u who reads this...!! haa haa
shiyong...
posted by AtTitUde | Sunday, August 07, 2005
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Arghh... I read it. does that mean You love me? haha...
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