Last paper --- where's the drive? Where's the love?

I'm going for my last paper in less than half an hour's time. This is the paper in which i'm totally not prepared at all. Not only that i skipped almost half the lessons, i didn't buy the textbooks and i only just gotten the lesson slides from my friend half an hour ago!

How screwed am i huh? One of the reason is that i was really depressed and sad yesterday. One of those days. Where i think no one in the world actually does love me. When ppl say that they do but at the end of the day, they realise that they are actually lying, both to you and themselves.

In that sense, do we have a right to be angry with that person or those ppl? COs they not only lied and hurt us, they lied to the only person whom they can trust in the world. They lied to themselves. So shouldn't they be more upset that even they have to lie to themselves?

Is it so hard to love ur friends, the people ard u these days? Or is it simply cos it's me? The irritating and easily irritated, the noisy, the superficial, the emotional nick. IS THAT SO?

Well well.... I'm who i am. No one knows me truly. or is therE? If there is, then i don't know. But i hope that there is. i really do... Pls. don't ask me questions should u have some after reading this entry, cos it's just some blabbering that i hv. Ciao

nick