Trek to Nuang 19-220206

My first trek in SMU. Could't really believe it that i'm going ! Cos it was kinda last minute for me. I only got to know it a few days b4 the names and all have to be finalised etc. So yea. Left Singapore for this trek with a really troubled and heavy heart. For those who wanna know why can always refer to my previous entry. I kinda received a few replies to it, i could say that i am pretty upset about it and all. But nvm, i'll write another post on it, now let's concentrate on this Trek !!

There are a couple of reasons as to why i embarked and decided to take on this trek. I think the main reason as to why i went for this trek is cos of a person whom i've come to know within this few weeks (Yu Jian). He asked me to go and i decided that i''ll go if he goes, so ya. Another reason is cos WEIBO is going too !! THe last reason is cos i've wanted to go trekking for a long time, so yea, why not.

This Trek is to Gunung Nuang, over at KL. SO we'll have some R & R after the trek. Not too bad huh ? whaaa. this trek cost me $70. So it better be fun !! The mode of transport to KL is by train !! My first time taking train to malaysia, so excited. Whhaaa.

Backtrack a little. Met Wei bo they all earlier to bring their rations for the trek. Yu jian came too. Got to know that he kinda hurt himself during "wakiki" while participating in 'push ball'. Rather badly hurt it seems. Kinda worried for him. Haven start trekking and he's injured. He shouldn't have come if he's injured lar, everytime wanna act tough only !! whahahaa, Ego man.

The train ride took even longer than what a bus ride will take. Kinda irony isn't it ?? Haa haa. ANd i didn't even get to sleep at all for the whole ride ! COs of a few reasons. Cos the train's so damn noisy and that my gum's giving me prob !! Kinda swollen and infected , all thanks to the stupid Wisdm tooth, always giving me prob.
We took a cab to Gunung Nuang. The ride was rather 'fun'. Cos we are un-sure of the way and all and all of us are taking differnt cabs. So it's kinda funny, what if one of the cabby don't know the way and got lost ?? WHaahaaa.Started the trek at ard late morning. Anyway after a few hours into the trek we got to realise something; that the place's full of leeches !! Look at my poor toes! I kinda got attacked for at least 3 times jus on my feet lar !! Think leeches got fetish for smelly feet or whatsoever !! Whahaaaa.We kinda lost our way and didn't manage to get to the summit of Nuang. So sad. Rather disappointed, got it's my very first trek in SMU !! Anyway, i think the majority of us are rather glad that we have decided to kinda stop the trek for the day and break for dinner and rest. Anyway took a few pics in the afternoon while trekking. Some of the pics are rather funny. Like the one below. Look at our MR Er Jun !! Whahaaa, he's posing like he's some kinda model or something !! So funny ! Whahaaaaa The thing which kinda shocked me was the millipede that we saw. There was so many of them and it's damn bloody huge !! whaa, it's the biggest one that i've ever seen in my life (at least up to now). Kinda scary, can't imagine how it'll feel like and how i'll react if i'm to find it on mt shoulder or something. Whahaaaa.

Disappointed / SAd / Unappreciated etc etc

I’m currently going through a rather complex and mixed emotions. I don't know how I should feel and how I should react. Therefore I decided to come in here to confide, to bitch, to 'vomit' out all that I am thinking and all that's going through my mind.

As you all out there might already know. My schedule's really packed for now till the end of next week. Cos of all the school's exams that's coming up, all the trekking, kayaking and also tennis lessons. Really packed till I don't think there'll be much space and time for me to relax. And guess what? I received a call this afternoon from Yu hua ( one of the "member" of bond 59). She told me that they are planning to go over to JB tomorrow which is SAT. Why such a last minute decision? Cos another member of "bond 58", Kelvin (Mr. Policemen), managed to get a day's leave and also managed to borrow a car. That's why. I really wanted to go with them. And i'll push away everything jus to go with them. But the fact that they know my schedule is so packed and still want to go makes me think that I’m not important at all. I know that they do not mean it, but I can't really help how I feel deep down.

I have always tried to make it to meet them so long as there aren’t any major clashes of timings. And if the meetings are planned in advance I’ll always make sure to block off the day for them!! But the prob is that they always don't plan in advance! I am really kind of tired of giving in to them and their wants at time. Like kept going for buffets etc. Who ever think about how I’m coping with things? With sch, with work (though i'm not really working now). And whenever I complain of work, Hui yee will say :" u don't understand one, school's the best. Unlike work". Ha... I mean, why say such things? Everyone always hated what they are doing at the stage of their life (or at least most of the time). Like I used to hate serving NS, but now that I’m studying, I think I do love army more!! See the point?

Back to the giving in part. Why can't everyone in the grp be less 'ge gao' at times? Like Kelvin and he’s occasional tantrums (which I would say here that I absolutely hated). For hui yee: I think you're kinda pushy and bossy at times to the point of irritating !! Do u know that I don't really wanna go over to ur place at times? Cos I don't feel comfortable at all, I feel very restrictive and all. But since the purpose of going over is to have fun and get together, I jus take it and as long as everyone is ok with it then it's ok. But it's really stressful at times, that's what I’m saying. Just think about when is the last time we played mahjong without ur protest!! So should I insist in not going for buffets next time ? Cos I really don't wanna spend all the money on buffets and food all the time. Why can't jus have a normal meal like fast food etc?? Is eating good food so important or that we have grow and forgotten about the simple things of life tht we use to enjoy so much ?

Ok ok, I have diverged a little. Back to the issue which triggers me to write all this (the proposed JB trip tomorrow). I made the effort to go, all that I want is to watch a movie and not come back too late (ard 10pm). Is it really too much? And I am really pissed when I have posted something on the yahoo grp and ask ppl to read but they don't want and simply jus refused!! Why? Cos they say that going online they'll think about work!! So does it imply likewise that I can not check the yahoo grp's posts next time and jus say that going online makes me think about sch (which is the very thing that I hated right now at this stage of my life??).

The very thing that makes me angry / sad / etc etc is that I made the effort to go with them despite my super tight schedule. But what did I get in the end? I got a call that tells me "I'll decide for u, u don't go for tomorrow, we'll go again another time." How am I supposed to feel? TELL ME!!! I don't need u all to decide for me. I've made a decision, I’ll go with u all so long as don't come back too late. But I’m simply not worth the sacrifice on all of their part. They are simply not willing to come back early?? I might have wrong them. I know. They could be thinking: “Nick’s already so busy, better let him go and concentrate on his stuff and sch work and all". But did anyone seriously deep down spared some thought for me? No one ever does!! Not them, not my army friends, not everyone!! This is life isn't it? This is simply the reality of life. All humans are born selfish and all. So should I from this very moment jus fuck care of everything and go back to my old ATTITUDE self? I think I should. Cos after so many years of trying to be better, things are actually not becoming better!! It's in fact becoming worse!!

Just think!! Think of all our outings!! Which are the ones suggested by me?? Buffet? KTVs? I went KTV the day b4 tat day that we went, do u all seriously think that I’ll wanna go again and sing all those same songs again (moreover I’m having a sore throat and a cough !). I don't know. U all kept saying that I am keeping things to myself right? Now I’m spilling everything out!! I really don't mind all these things and I can live with it, I can accept all these!! Why? Cos I love all of u as friends, I cherish all the relationships with friends and all. And nothing's perfect in the world, I’ve come to realize and come to terms with it long ago. But I jus hated it and I jus can't tolerate it when I feel that I’ve been taken for granted!! I don't need material stuffs; I jus need those small gestures and recognition / appreciation!! Don’t even need to tell me!! I can feel it!! But the prob now is that it seemed to have disappeared!!

So I’ve come clean with what ever that I think and feel on u all. Let's jus say everything and stop been the ever political correct guy!! Too much of it will amt to being a hypocrite and I hated it!! I hated those kinda ppl and I don't wanna be one of them!!

Anyway, I have not really say things about Terence, Guo hao and Yu hua. Frankly specking, I don't think there's anything wrong with Terence not able to meet up with us that often etc. Maybe cos both of us are in sch, so I kinda know what he's going through and all. Moreover with his school stuff and dance etc, it's understandable that he's busy. So pls, stop saying that he’s not trying to meet us etc. I don't think he mean it. But Terence (if u happened to read this) ; pls try not to complain to ppl that u are damn poor when u are like buying clothes and buying over $100's Adidas jacket and adidas caps and all etc etc. I mean, does that really seem like poor to u? And does going to chiong seem to be something which a poor person will do ?

For Kelvin, pls. Stop complaining etc etc on things which are not important like why we goes out or meet up when u are working. Come on, be realistic!! The only time where all of us will be free is like weekends right? So does it mean that we can't meet if u don't have offs on weekends? Pls !! Give me a break!! And u know what? Ur this syndrome is spreading!! Now I’m also always complaining cos u all always have supper without Terence and me !! Did u ever think about this? Why don't u nag to yourself the next time u do it ? I mean, come on, we are all old enough, everyone have their constraints, so pls, will everyone be reasonable? Terence don't nag when we meet without him right? So I don't see why u should. Actually I don't see why anyone should. We all know that we are important and mean something to one another right? so isn't it enough ??? Pls don't PMS after reading this, this is only what I feel. So ya. And one more thing that i wanna tell u kelvin; pls don't make any more STUPID comments trying to imply that there's something more than friendship between Yu hua n me. That's something which makes me think that u are really CHILDISH !!! Pls.Thanks.

For Guo hao and yu hua I don't have any complains. Cos I think they are mature enough and seldom throw tantrums etc. So ya. Yu hua can say that she don't wanna do certain certain things like once in a while. It's alright as long as it's not all the time like hui yee who don't know why seems to object to us playing mahjong all the time (even though we all know that guo hao wanna play it!!!). Actually u all kkknow what I like the most? Jus to go to some cafe and sit and have a drink and talk. It's the best thing that friends can do with one another. Really. To me, it's the simplest things tht matters at times. So ya, guo hao and yu hua have been very accommodating. VERY GD!! hahaa (my first laugh after typing for so long right ? ) But one thing that guo hao can do is to so asking us to go for buffets!!!

Ok ok, I think it's late already. So everything that I ever wanna say i've said. So ya. Felt lighter now!! Anyway I might forget a few things as well, but the above should roughly summarize it already. Pardon me for my lousy use of English and also all those errors etc etc.

*Disclaimer: Above are all the thoughts and feelings of Nicholas Kwok Shi Yong. So if there’s anyone who is offended by those things said, pls ignore them as they should not have been said at all !! Cos they are thoughts and feelings!! SO yea!! Pls don't take him liable for anything said!! Hahahaha

Nick

Patron's Day - 130206

Today is Patron's day !! Wasn't really very lookng forward to it though. Why ? Cos there's a MA Quiz very first thing in the morning! REally hated it manz. *ucking don't know how to do the quiz. Argh ! Why ? Cos my computer crashed !! Then couldn't be able to assess my stuffs for the past Quiz papers ! Haiz. The worse thing is that i feel the quiz wasn't hard at all. I'm rather confident that i'll be able to do the paper if i had practise. But...... Who ask me right ? Deserve it.

Went over to the Smux Booth to help out after my MA lesson. Most of the setting up was already done when i reach there, so there wasn't much things which i could do to help. Just hang ard for a little while b4 i went to have lunch followed by my AS class.

What's next after my Super, Duper Confusing AS lesson ?? I went over to the Smux's Booth to "try" to help out. But .. ..... There's still wasn't much to do. Went to try a little of the Rollar Skating before going back to hang ard over at Smux and Kiat yang's booth.

Louis also was kinda involved in one of the activity over at the booths. Some valentine's activity. Selling flowers etc. Haa. Look at the clothes that he's wearing. So "cute" right ?? Looks like a cupid doesn't he? I personally like the arrow more though. WHahahahha.
Took a lot more pics after all the activities are over. Whahaa. But there isn't much pics with me. So sad.
See all of them so funny! Trying to squeeze into their 'little hut'.Think the thing will give in and collaspe lar ! Damn it, so many *ucking ppl wanna squeeze into their!Look at the SMux Girls down there@ think they are trying th seduce the judges or what loh! Dress till like that. But those guys from the aquatic sharks were still the best lar, cos they Went onto the stage with only their swimming trunks on!!

nick

Explore De Quay !!

Finally going for Kayaking Activity Liao !! Been MIAing for so long , haa haa. Think everyone in kayaking wanna kill me liao. Anyway, rather looking forward to this event. It's some event in light of the approaching Vday. Going to kayak from kalleng to the Singapore river (Clarke Quay). The event is called Explore De Quay !!

ALl my school friends joined the 2nd run. Actually i wanna go for the morning run, but i really don't think i can wake up in the morning, that's why i decided to go for the second run. The weather seems rather nice though, not too sunny etc, luckily, cos i actually got a mild sun burn even when it's not that sunny !!! As u can see, RED BULL is one of the sponser of the event. But we don't have any red bull to drink cos of some mis-communication !! Damn it. so disappointed !! haah aa.

Stayed back after the activity to help out with the rest for the clearing of stuffs and cleaning up. At least try to help out a little ma, right ? hahahaa. Then at the same time can treat it as a little gathering etc ma, since so many of the kayaking ppl are there.

nick

BGS Proposal + Smux Bday Cele N Dinner with Yin Zhu

Morning lesson today. So tired. WHy ?? Cos i don't have enough sleep due to the fact that i had to rush and finish my AS (Analytical skills) homework b4 i sleep. U'll be asking why do i have to finish it b4 i sleep ? Cos i don't have timme anymore !! i have to rush and 'pia' my BGS (business, govt and society) proposal which will be due on the up and coming thurs !! In short, I'm dying !!

Had lunch with Christine (my OG Fren) before heading over to the library to do up my BGS proposal and also research for materials on it. Damn it !! Really lost. There's nothing in my brain other than words for the whole day.

Social CapitAL

Corporate Social Responsibility

Cause Marketing

Economic Benefits

Community Services

Freaking confused by all these words manz. Argh !! It was hours b4 i even came up with anything loh. Haa haa. How ? I really wanna do well for this term. But by the look of it, i don't think i can do better than last term. Might even do worse than last term manz.

There;s some Smux activity this evening. A rather informal one. It's is jus a gathering actually and a little celebration for the Jan and FEb babies. Look at the pic below for the babies !!

More ppl turned up this time round as compared to the last time. Look at the pic below and u'll know !! There's like close to 20 ppl this time round. This is suppose to be a dinner thingy, but i didn't eat at all. Not hungry at that moment and i really hated the food in our school's Kopitiam. So sick of it already.Went for dinner with Yin Zhu over at my FAV Cartel at 9PM !! CAn u believe it ?? I had dinner at 9pm !! Actually can go earlier one, it's just that i wanna eat the cakes which will be going at 1/2 price after 9pm, so ya, kinda no choice as i wanna save money right ?? Look at the cakes, it's really nice !! REally full of choc, think i might kanna more pimple after eating them. See Yin Zhu, so happy eating the free Bread. Don't understand why she wanna eat the bread when there's a cake right in front of her !! haa haaSo what we had for dinner ? We had the Famous, Delicious "St. Louis Pork Ribs !!" Whaa.... It's damn nice i tell u. The only time whereby i'm not satisfied by the pork ribs is the last time that i have it over at PS's CArtel !! (got the hint as to where to go if u want nice pork ribs ????)Look at Yin Zhu : enjoying the food so much !! haa haa

nick

SMU + ME = ???

Guess what ? Today's a Sunday. A day to relax for many others. A day in which i am been taught from young that should be a relaxing day to spend with either ur family or ur friends. But guess what ?? I'm freaking having a project meeting over at the national library now..!! Why ? Cos i *ucking have a proposal due on the coming thurs and we do not even have our hypothesis firm up !! U guys/gals out there know what ?? I'm screwed, really.

actually i have being thinking of something for the whole of this term. SHould i really give all that i have, forgo most of my (not very significant) social life and just study and try to get better grades or should i jus *uck it and get by without failing ??? Whta should i do ? School's really killing me ..!! So many things to do and there jus seems to be no time at all. As in really no time. It's always a rush to meet a dateline after sloughing to meet one. Is that whhat uni life's all about ??

REcently i got to know someone from my school. He's rather a amazing person (at least for me). Why ? COs he managed to be really active in other activities in the school like CCAs etc etc, but yet on the other hand achieve fantastic results. I know i shouldn't compare. But... how not to when everyone elses ard u are like doing so bloody well ?

Sometimes i really wonder, am i the source of all the prob that i am experiencing ?? AM i giving myself too much stress etc ??? AM i in a bid to try and do well for my studies tried too hard that it back fired ?? I seriously don't know. Haiz.... Will someone pls..., come and tell me ...!!! I am really lost and all. Cannot take it liao lar.

What's worse is that i always kanna those "mad" profs. There's no equality at all ..!! WHy do i say so ? I say so cos i have friends who's taking the same few courses as me and they says that it's not that tough. Why ? Cos their prof don't demand so much. Take my BGS (business, government and society) course for example. Other ppl's lessons normally jus consist of talking rubbish etc and that they are given the hypothesis for their final paper to start on. Hw about us ?? WE are given nothing ..!! And what ever we manage to come up are always not right ...!! And just because that i am a accounting student, the course that i am taking is so much more difficult than what those non-accounting students are taking. Is it fair ?? THe course name is the same but we are actually doing more things etc .

Ok ok, ennough said and complaining. It's not going to help and there's no way i',m going to keep on complaning and indulge in self pity (cos it fucking doesn't help to better then situation ..!!). I'm going to carry on with my mtging and hope and seriously pray that things will turns out well.

OKOK, bye.... Hope that i'll still be alive after the end of this term ..!!

Nick

IKOI Buffet + KTVING with Bond 59

Had a make up lesson this morning. Thought it's at 0830 but it turns out tat i have remembered it wrongly..!! It's at 0900. Argh !! i could have sleep like 1/2 an hour more. Anyway, the lesson started off with a grp's presentation. Thought it'll take only like half the lesson's duration but it turns out that the presentation took like 2 hours. OMG. That's madness. So many ppl asking qns and making comments. Argh !! Supposed to meet Yu hua etc for a lunch japanese buffet over at Miramar's IKOI restaurant. The lunch mtging is at 12 but i only finish lesson at 1230!! haahaa. Took a cab down, it's really near, cost only $3.20, so it's ok. HAa haaa

Didn't really enjoy the food that much. Not having a really good appetite then i guess. But can see that the rest are happy with their meal as shown in the pic above, everyone's smiling so happily !

Once again, we were lost and have absolutely no idea as to where to go to after the meal. Ended up visiting my school (SMU) in the end. Took them on a CITY CAMPUS tour. Haa haa, kinda funny bringing friends to walk ard in the sch and for once not going to MUG in school !! Took them to the famous "MR TEA" for sme drinks. Haa haa.

But visiting my school cannot 'waste' a lot of our time. Decided to go KTV over at chinatown after calling several KTV outlets !! Kinda funny, cos the price is always different whenever we call. Actually the whole day's event were not what i really wanted to do cos i don't wanna spend the money on buffets anymore and i jus went KTV the day b4, thus i have no desire to go ktv again !!

Nick

Tennis + KTV with RObin

Today's suppose to be my 'free day'. ALl thanks to all the holidays, have to go back school for Management Accounting's Make up lesson. TOday's topic is on Budgeting. The theory part was really boring etc, couldn't understand at all. I kinda like the part whereby we have to deal with the excel thingy and do up the actual budget. That's rather fun to play with.

Today's a rather packed day. An exciting one i hope. Haa haa. Signed up for some tennis clinic with 2 of my friends from my OG. The sessions' held over at NUS from 330 - 5pm. Kinda looking forward to it for a couple of reasons.

1. To lose weight !!

2. So that i can learn a new sport.

3. To be able to play tennis with Eugene and Kiat yang in the future

4. To engage in some SMU activity that is not related with school work and GRADES !!!

5. Lastly, to get a LIFE !!!

Met up with Robin for our usual KTV session again !! haa haa. Have not meet up with him for so long !! Guess everyone's busy manz. Really happpy that he called me up. Actually i wasn't that keen on going for ktv that day. But the fact is that Robin jio-ed me, so cannot reject him ma !! hahaha. Yap. And it's freaking expensive manz, it cost me $30, cos the stupid KBOX says that it's Chinese New year period, so it's more ex !! Feel like slapping them at that moment loh.

Nick